By Grace & In Hope

Wartime

We are at battle in the world.  We are called to war.  Now I'm not sure if you feel like you are battling most days but I do.  I feel like I'm battle flesh and blood (the battles that make me tired) and battling spiritually along with God in which He gives me strength for the battles and sometimes battling my own evil desires or willingness to give into temptations.  What weapons do we battle within our fights.
When I battle against flesh and blood; my biggest battle is anger.  Anger from feeling alone, abandoned, insecurity and lack of appreciation.  All of these are based on lies, pride or fear of man.  I can repent, be forgiven and God can take them away or strengthen me to overcome them but often I try to battle them on my own.  I think I can will try not to yell at my children, I can try to not feel abandon when my husband is busy, I can try to feed my need for connection with social media or texting, I can tell myself how good I am at something or ask if something I did was appreciated or done well but none of these things ever satisfy.  I need to dig deep and figure the root of these things so they can be uprooted and destroyed so the good roots have the soil, water and nourishment they need to bear good fruit.
I'm tired of battling against flesh and blood and the lies and temptation of Satan.  We need to rest in Christ and let him battle for us.  He just asks us to trust, and sometimes sing to confuse the enemy and win the battle.  So today I'm going to choose the battle with the Word of God and have a song in my heart and on my lips.  I'm choosing to stay out of war zones, even if I'm just on the line of battle and let the enemies fight among themselves... I'm going rest, maybe cry too but rest in the saving grace of my Lord Jesus Christ.